A riddle wrapped in a mystery inside a bitch!

why dont you stay....

Tue, 05 Feb 2013 19:47:23 -0600

“Stay”

I’ve been sitting here staring at the clock on the wall
And I’ve been laying here praying, praying she won’t call
It’s just another call from home
And you’ll get it and be gone
And I’ll be crying

And I’ll be begging you, baby
Beg you not to leave
But I’ll be left here waiting
With my Heart on my sleeve
Oh, for the next time we’ll be here
Seems like a million years
And I think I’m dying

What do I have to do to make you see
She can’t love you like me?

Why don’t you stay
I’m down on my knees
I’m so tired of being lonely
Don’t I give you what you need
When she calls you to go
There is one thing you should know
We don’t have to live this way
Baby, why don’t you stay

You keep telling me, baby
There will come a time
When you will leave her arms
And forever be in mine
But I don’t think that’s the truth
And I don’t like being used and I’m tired of waiting
It’s too much pain to have to bear
To love a man you have to share

Why don’t you stay
I’m down on my knees
I’m so tired of being lonely
Don’t I give you what you need
When she calls you to go
There is one thing you should know
We don’t have to live this way
Baby, why don’t you stay

I can’t take it any longer
But my will is getting stronger
And I think I know just what I have to do
I can’t waste another minute
After all that I’ve put in it
I’ve given you my best
Why does she get the best of you
So next time you find you wanna leave her bed for mine

Why don’t you stay
I’m up off my knees
I’m so tired of being lonely
You can’t give me what I need
When she begs you not to go
There is one thing you should know
I don’t have to live this way
Baby, why don’t you stay, yeah

The tragedy of a broken heart...

Mon, 28 Jan 2013 12:29:34 -0600

No one knows the pain I’m in, because I smile and act happy. I put on a really good act, so no one knows how much I’m hurting. How I go home and cry for hours and think about you all day long. No one knows how much you matter how much I love you how alone I am how empty I am. No one knows how lost i am without you… All we’ve been through I can’t help but think its because we are meant to be together. People don’t just go through all we’ve gone through without it meaning something. I hope one day we find our way back to each other because without you in my life I’m falling apart…

What if i still miss you in a year....

Sun, 27 Jan 2013 12:27:05 -0600

I’m starting to get the fear that what if I wake up one day and my eyes won’t open. What if I’m blind? What will I do how will I survive? How will I see all the beauty in the world? How will I be able to see the memories of my life our life? What if I wake up one day and I see nothing…. And even worse what if I wake up one day and remember nothing. What if my mind starts over? What if I can’t remember what my life was like who I loved who inspired me who loved me back the reasons I am who I am? What if my whole life is erased? That is my fear. To have a life I can’t remember. I pray everyday they find a cure because that is ultimately my destiny if they don’t. Please find a cure please change this tragic disease.

I loved you once
I’ve loved you always
I’ll love you forever

In the mist of a broke heart your still all I think about in each moment of my life your everything that made sense your everything that felt right

That day… That day in the car for some reason it keeps replaying it was so long ago so many years ago it meant nothing but it started everything sitting there I felt like I could tell you anything and you’d listen because you cared who I was before you didn’t matter you just wanted to get to know the person I am now and that gave me hope that for once someone wasn’t going to judge my past they just wanted to know me the real me the me that no one knew. I still miss you and I don’t know if the pain of missing you will ever go away… What if this is it for me what if your it? I wish I knew what my life had in store for me so I could feel at ease I know life doesn’t work like that. So ill sit and wait and believe that one day ill find peace and happiness.

Your my best friend

Wed, 23 Jan 2013 21:52:21 -0600

I still love you and I know that Im always going to be in love with you because your the one for me your my best friend i think about you every minute of the day when it’s just you and me together it’s amazing I was lost before i met you and now I’m lost without you…

:/

Mon, 21 Jan 2013 20:34:12 -0600

One day I’ll be ok… One day I’ll find happiness…

Frozen in time....

Sun, 28 Oct 2012 22:51:46 -0500

Everyone is moving on and I feel like I’m standing still… Everyone’s changing and I’m exactly the same… I wonder if ill ever be able to move forward with my life, make something of myself. Because right now I feel like time is passing and I’m here frozen unable to move…. Something’s got to change. This is becoming unbearable…

I told you about my past hoping you were my future....

Fri, 26 Oct 2012 23:33:24 -0500

what do you do when the person you’ve gone through it all with isnt there anymore…. who do I tell my secrets to now… I miss you everyday…

& I just wanna tell you… it takes everything in me not to call you… & I wish I could run to you… & I hope you know that everytime I don’t I almost do…. I bet you think I moved on… I bet it never even occurred to you that I can’t say hello to you and risk another goodbye… & I hope sometimes you wonder about me…. & I just wanna tell you it takes everything in me not to call you… ♥

Even though...

Thu, 04 Oct 2012 23:49:23 -0500

You don’t love me I can’t stop loving you… Make the pain stop… Help me forget… Help me move on…

its not ok anymore....

Fri, 28 Sep 2012 00:12:31 -0500

for a long time i put how i was feeling out of my head i focused on the things i needed to focus on i tried to live my life the best i could. but things are not ok im not ok im hurting everyday the pain gets worse and nothing and no one is making it better. everyday more and more things break me more and more things make me want to die. im so lonely. i fear that no one will ever really love me the real me. i fear that ill never be good enough for anyone.. im so afraid ill be alone forever. everyday i try to put a smile on my face and push through the day and find good in everything i do, but im just not happy. its not just that im not happy but im in severe pain. i cry myself to sleep most nights. and some nights i dont even sleep at all. i cant stop thinking about how empty and lonely i am. im broken inside. its not ok anymore. im not ok… i need help..

The random things I'd like to say that nobody but me cares about....

Mon, 24 Sep 2012 01:36:30 -0500

I would really like some heart shaped glasses… Sunglasses. The Katy Perry movie was amazing… Passing math is probably the hardest thing I’ll ever do…. I really miss my best friend… I wish I had someone to talk to… I finally understand that I’m all alone in this world and i am the reason I succeed or fail not anyone else…. I love to dance when I’m alone…. I love to sing at the top of my lungs in the car…. Mainly to country…. I’m so excited for won’t back down I don’t even care I’ll be seeing it alone… I miss you all day long…. Do you miss me? Im getting more angry… Teaching is much harder then I ever imagined it would be…. i miss home…. Random thoughts of my day…. <3

I'm so terrified....

Sat, 22 Sep 2012 18:01:09 -0500

Of death…. I think about it almost daily… Some days it consumes my every thought…. But I’m also so afraid to live…. I’m afraid that if I start living I’ll forget about everything that changed my life… Everything I’ve gone though all the emotion… I’m so afraid of being here one day and being gone the next it scares me to not know what’s going to happen to me… I joke that I’m going to live forever because I’m so afraid to admit that I really won’t. It scares me more and more everyday seeing people I’ve known my whole life get older and die… It’s so terrifying to know that one day that will be me… I don’t know how to stop myself from thinking about this everyday… Sometimes I sit for hours and just think about it and it makes me cry…. I think I need someone to talk to…. I’m so lonely….

sometimes i just want to scream....

Mon, 17 Sep 2012 23:20:00 -0500

I loose sleep over you… i dont cry… i just cant move on…. i sit and wonder why i feel this way and i cant figure it out… im broken im ashamed…. nobody knows the pain because i dont talk about it anymore… ive put you out of my mind so i could try and focus… focus on the things that are suposed to change my life… but the thing is you never left my mind… not once… not ever… alots happened… and to tell you about it would make me so completely happy… true love does it exist? i thought so… i thought i found it… i thought i finally understood love… but is love suposed to be this painful? is it suposed to be so one way? is it suposed to hurt this much? no i dont think thats love…

its not about the fact that i love you its about the fact that im terrified to be without you….

i guess we have to let the people we love live there lives and be there for them when it all comes crashing down…

i still love you…

if i wasnt going to be a teacher…. id be a professional...

Tue, 13 Dec 2011 14:23:00 -0600

if i wasnt going to be a teacher…. id be a professional baker…. baking calms me… it makes me feel confident… and it teaches me…. I LOVE BAKING!!

the world should always be pink!!!

Mon, 12 Dec 2011 19:47:00 -0600

the world should always be pink!!!

the cutest little puppy like ever!!!! i would never be lonely if...

Mon, 12 Dec 2011 19:43:36 -0600

the cutest little puppy like ever!!!! i would never be lonely if this little cutie was with me!!!

I think im gona make some cookies!!!! <3

Sun, 11 Dec 2011 15:42:49 -0600

I think im gona make some cookies!!!!

everybodies christmas tree should be pink just like mine!!!!

Sat, 10 Dec 2011 19:19:26 -0600

everybodies christmas tree should be pink just like mine!!!!

confessions of a makeup junkie!

Sat, 10 Dec 2011 19:12:52 -0600

confessions of a makeup junkie!

hair decisions!!!!?!?!?!

Sat, 10 Dec 2011 18:58:00 -0600

hair decisions!!!!?!?!?!

My perfect love story….

Sat, 10 Dec 2011 01:29:28 -0600

My perfect love story….